Tuesday 23rd february 2010

Today i am exhausted, i havnt had a day off in 2 weeks with work and uni work. Yesterday i spent editing my 2nd test shoot that i shot myself, styled myself, hair and make-up and edited myself! Shot in my house i moved all the furniture out a room...mum was very understanding. This week i am doing backstage make-up for tunbridge wells fashion week that i was asked to get involved with...so tomorrow and thursday will be hectic...then i have to present on friday. Saturday i will be prepping for another shoot that i intend to shoot next wedneday! i have been consistently emailing agencies to try and get models...so hopefully i will find two models to shoot with next wednesday...i really want to get some final images out of this shoot. i am sure on what i am trying to say now. i want to try and shoot a beauty shot and aswell and some full lengths, adressing the issues of the Beauty myth and the regulation of women in today's society.

So last week i shot with two younger girls.....i have posted the result. I wanted my second test to address the issues i have been talking about from when it begins the start of adolescence, and to almost show the pain this issue is effecting on young girls. I played with photographing there reflections to create an illusion that the viewer is looking at a segment of reality. The viewer and subject are both gazing at the same reflection, there’s nothing beyond the image, it’s a fragment of reality. A truthful pictorial form…there’s nothing fancilful, just two virginal girls, girls who will be scarred by today’s society imprisoned by the negative form of empowerment women are being given. The two girls in the photographs are 14, they are not aware of their sexual desires, they are niave to today’s culture. They gaze directly and vulnerably and the camera, there’s a sensitivity and sadness in their eyes. Dressed in white white shot on a high exposure I wanted to exagerate the exploitation of the lolita effect.. It gives a very different aesthetic to my first shoot. I liked the almost painted feel of my first shoot but I think it did need to be a little sharper. So I played with a shot from my first shoot and 2nd shoot to see if It would work shooting inboth formats to get this idea still of body/soul mind/body seperation.

I want to keep the theme of the white colour palette throughout this project...the colour isn't gender specific, i believe it is a truthful colour and it wont distract the eye from the reality of the image. It also adds to the pain and suffering of the exposure to todays society.

I am really very tired so i am going to go now..... presentation needs finishing...sunday i am going to sleep well!