Monday 1st March 2010

Very hectic week last week, getting very tired now. Im still trying to finalize models for next weeks photoshoot. Proving to be hard when you need two girls that will work well together and you can only offer images and expenses.

i had my in term critique last friday and it went well, Paul commented at the end saying i've probably written my 2000 word research commentary already. I do have alot that i have looked at, and it will be hard on the hand in day to show everything i have been doing in the body of work when alot of it is reading. Sometimes i wish i had chosen the 50/50 half photoshoots, half written theory. I think after last terms grades i probably would have been capable to do this pathway, but i didn't believe in myself after finding out it was the hardest pathway. I have a sketchbook of artists that i have been looking at which i document some of my thought process, just i have pages of notes that im stuck on what to do with. This is why in my presentation on friday i crammed as much in as possible so it gets seen. I have decided that i am also going to work on some boards to show a really quick presentation of my journey from photoshoot to photoshoot. I will probably do about 10 boards and i think this could be away of documenting my theory thought process too.

Anway this week on the 3rd i have an important photoshoot and still no models confirmed....very nervous that i will actually get two girls. i have something i really want to test out, the beauty myth and the regulation of female.... i aim to shoot a beauty shot with a girl i found last week at a show, and stage a shot with another two models. We only could get two hours in the studio so i hope i am not being over ambitious. I am planning everything so precisely so that it all runs smoothly. The Beauty Myth by Naomie Wolf has really inspired this shoot. The reality of the Beauty Myth is that all women want to embody it and always will, it will lead to the death of the female. I want to stage a photograph where the models look awkward and lost from their bodies, i am going to play with multiple bodies as i want to try and create an illusion of death through the model abandoning her body. Creating a connection between women, sex and death. Their gazes will not look out of the camera....i want to keep the gaze between the females in the frame. I want the image to have an ambiguity...this way people will question the image instead of just seeing it as something to be looked at. I hope it works..... i don't have alot of time in the studio and need to stage it perfectly so it looks the way i vision it..
After my shoot i catch the train to birmingham for the National Wedding shows at the NEC all weekend. Atleast this will give me a little break from uni work and i can look at the shoots with a fresh eye on monday. Monday i am meeting with my photographer to shoot some of her work and then start editing my images.

Anway need to get going now........