14th January 2010

So i have been snowed in for about 9 days.... i did manage to get to london though for my project briefing on monday.....what a journey that was.

I have been very productive in the my 9 days of snow....(after suffering with a really bad cold after rebelling and walking 6 miles to my nan and grandad's house to get out of the house), i have managed to finally got my website up and running. I couldn't afford to pay for someone else to do it...and on the up side atleast i can add to it myself. So i battled all week learning the programme and the result is a pretty basic, but i think a smart little first website. (www.francesleedone.co.uk)

So thats what i painstakingly built last week verrrry slowly.

So went back to uni this week and had the brief delivered by Paul for an hour and then that was pretty much it. WERE ON OUR OWN AHHHHHHHHH! When they said the final two terms were very much self directed and we wouldn't be in a lot i didn't literally think two presentation days and a few tutorials. God i really am going to have to motivate myself...which i am not worried about as i'll get a guilty conscience if i don't, but it's still all a tad daunting. I intend to visit two art galleries a week and research for the 1st few weeks to get my ideas rolling. I have been reading Nancy Friday's books from the sixties on female sexual revolution, 'My Secret Garden and Men in Love'. There very graphic in detail but i'm pulling them apart, and finding her breakdown of the psychological essential meaning, of the fantasies in the letters written to her very interesting. Why we have these fantasies? the hidden messages in them she describes as even secret to oneself. Very liberating.

I have decided even though i'm looking at wish fulfillments and fantasies in relationships, i don't want my project to be graphic and pornographic. I want the messages to be subtle and mystifying, ethereal in aesthetic and evoke a feeling in the viewer.

This week i'm still snowed in so i am going to concentrate on artist research and getting my initial ideas on paper. Also i have started to think about how i want to present my research, i've really got the urge to do some painting...hmmm.

It's so murky and depressing outside and in january it is so difficult to be enthusiastic about things, when there is literally not a lot to look forward to. Anyway i have decided i have to look on the bright side of life...

Chin up!